Monday, August 30, 1999

eye of the beholder

Note from 2012: I am missing a diary from about 1998 to 2002. I wrote a lot of poems in that time, but to the best of my knowledge I didn't write any diary entries. I will provide some of the poems here as a way to represent my melodramatic mind during those "missing years" and on some of the poems (2000-2002) the dates are only approximate. The thoughts were sometimes experimental, and not a total reflection of my life. Just poetry of a teenager. I won't upload all of them, but I will upload a few to fill in any gaps in my chronological record.

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The poem on this page is from a computer text file I kept on my handmade 80486.

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Eye of the beholder!
Watch me grow young as I get older!
eye of the beholder!
watch me get older!
get older!
look into the sky, as it brakes, and shines golder!
see the night as it grows oh so colder!
dont you r.e.a.l.i.s.eeee?
its all.
in the eye of the beholder!
I'm getting younger as I'm always older!
Say hello, say goodbye
Just behind your mask, I can see youre always ready to cry
Your eye, my eye
the difference is only a simple lie
eye of the beholder!
eye of the beholder!

Sunday, August 15, 1999

red green yellow

Note from 2012: I am missing a diary from about 1998 to 2002. I wrote a lot of poems in that time, but to the best of my knowledge I didn't write any diary entries. I will provide some of the poems here as a way to represent my melodramatic mind during those "missing years" and on some of the poems (2000-2002) the dates are only approximate. The thoughts were sometimes experimental, and not a total reflection of my life. Just poetry of a teenager. I won't upload all of them, but I will upload a few to fill in any gaps in my chronological record.

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The poem on this page is from a computer text file I kept on my handmade 80486.

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"red"
If you could hear the color red
would it only scream of the many dead?
what would it think when it saw the blue sky?
would it tell you everything will die?
if you could hear the color red
would you believe all the fiendish things it surly said?
Evil, heathen, red are you really all bad?
Red, red, marvelous red, thoughts of you only seem to make me sad

"green"
If you could feel the color green
Could it taste like a lima bean?
Would it feel flat or round?
And would it make even a simple chirping sound?
if you could feel the color green
would it feel like someone old, or someone who was as young as a teen?
Simple soft, green, do some people look upon you with hate?
Silly green, dumb and mute, I think the other colors use you for innocent bait

"yellow"
If you could be the color yellow
would you feel all gushy and mellow?
Or would you turn evil and scream?
Would you be like a monster in a bad dream?
If you could be the color yellow
would you shake so softly like lemon jello?
Or would you shrink oh so very small?
Would you then sit and stare at the empty wall?
Yellow, don't you have so many different ways that people understand you?
To me, youre just plain and simply a very beautiful hue

 
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